I HATE THINGS SOMETIMES!

Right now I am hating a lot of things,

Medicare

Tailbones

Heat, with no fans

Sitting/ Standing/ Walking

Eating (weird right?)

Allergies

Thieves

Ha ha So I'm sure that isn't all I hate right now but that's all I can think of.

I won't go into the details about each of these but I'll sum it up for you.

Medicare, because they are doing everything possible to not have to pay for Jackson's surgery so he isn't getting it at the moment (frustrated, frustrated, frustrated!!!)

Tailbones, mines been dislocated/ fractured before and this little girl has decided to cozy up to it and push it out of place.... this explains my hatred for sitting, standing, and walking.

Eating; well apparently (according to the doctor) there isn't any room for my stomach so I'm supposed to have smoothies and eat like every hour..... I laughed at that.

Have you met my child?

Jackson?

He's awesome. 

He eats like a champ especially when I am eating

If I ate every hour so would he and well, I really don't think I should have to change that many poops everyday.  

Allergies and thieves are pretty darn obvious. 

Ok enough of my little rant....

I will post pictures of all my lovely little projects as soon as I am done with them. :)

Crazy Summertime Fun!

So we have been super duper busy!

But excuses are like butts and I just sit on mine a lot these day! 

Ha ha I wish I was kidding.

Moving:

We are all unpacked (it only took me about a week cause my sister is awesome and unpacked like everything for me the first day, and we had all 3 kids with us, it was awesome)

We love the new place.

Everything just flows so well for us here.

Jax has a ridiculously messy playroom, that he loves!

Kyle has his theater room.

And I have my sewing/crafting center in the playroom so I'm entertained while entertaining Jax all day.

It has seriously been fabulous!

Lately I've just been trying to get the house exactly how I want it.

Once I'm finished I'll post pics of all the wonderful things I've done. 

Baby/Pregnancy Updates:

So compared to Jackson's pregnancy I think I could have like 10 kids if all my pregnancies go this well.

I am about 30 weeks now.

I had no morning sickness, I've hardly gotten sick at all.

No swelling yet (I was a balloon by now with Jax).

I was sick for like 2 weeks at the beginning of the second trimester, just because by uterus popped up way too quickly for my poor little stomach to handle ( I lost like 15 lbs)

They (the docs) have had a few concerns with her.

So I've had to go to specialists, boooo...

First, it was for general genetic testing. 

All was well

Second, for her head size.

Apparently, she has a little head. But she should be fine just have to keep checking that little head of hers.

We aren't worried. I'm sure everything will be great!

Ok I have been anemic and OH MY GOODNESS...

it makes me so tired.

Poor Jax is so good though and lets his mommy sleep in. 

Seriously, he goes to his playroom on his own and only comes get me for food or if he's stinky. 

He'll even come give me kisses and hugs then tucks me in and tells me night, night. 

Sometimes I think I have the best child in the whole world,

ok who am I kidding, I think that all the time!

I got maternity pictures taken the other day and I've only seen 2 of them so far but they are so ridiculously cute!

Oh, and we've decided on her first name at least. 

Ready? We are naming her....

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EMMALYNN

Isn't it adorable. I actually thought of it when I was prego with Jax and it just seems perfect for her. We have already taught Jax to call her Emmy. It's so cute when he does. 

Jax Updates

So he is supposed to get surgery on the 22nd of this month!

They are going to extend the skin between the thumb and forefinger to give him a bigger grip.

We are excited for him but super nervous.

I mean what do you even do while your child is getting surgery? 

Just sit there? Ugh!

He will have a cast covering his entire hand and up his arm past his elbow.

His is going to hate it.

He'll have it on for 4-6 weeks.

So by the time he gets it off we'll only have 2 weeks before my due date!

Ahhhhh.....

So I'm trying to get everything ready before his surgery.

How's that working out you ask?

Well, I'm so not even halfway done!

Other than the surgery he is growing and learning superbly! 

AT his last check up he was weighing 34.5 lbs. and was 37.5 inches. 

He's huge!

It's hilarious!

I love that boy. He amazes me everyday!

KYLE

Well he's actually pretty darn boring compared to me and Jax. :) he he

He finished his semester.

Is working like a mad man at On-The-Spot Chem-Dry Carpet/Upholstery Cleaning.

He's been doing pretty darn well with it. 

We are so proud of him.

He has also decided that he is going to be a pilot. We have the summer to figure out exactly the plan for doing that but I sure am glad he has found something he will love to do. 

AND NOW...

PICTURES

Being cute after bath time!

Shoes I made for Emmalynn

Getting warm after swim time with cousins!

Just being cute!

Weeeee!

My cute boys!

I'm so excited!!!!

All dressed up for church!

Playing at the playground!

Sweet new sunglasses!

Enough said! Bahaha

This ball is super duper fun!

Life As Usual!

I've been a really lame blogger.

So to all three of you who read this, 

your welcome. :)

Ok well I would hope you all know by now that I'm a big prego pants!

Which basically means I can't fit into any of mine.

I just going to give a quick breakdown of life as of late.

Kyle is working his little tushy off doing carpet cleaning and going to school Mon-Thur. at night 

(He's a little bit miserable but Jax and I sure do appreciate how hard he's working for us)

Jax playing on Daddy, he was saying "Yay!"

Jax is awesome as usual!

Learning and growing like algae (algae grows a lot faster than weeds :)

He weighs 36 pounds (yeah I can't lift that huge monster)

He is 36 Inches in height (3 ft. What? 2 more and he'll be taller than me)

In all likelihood he'll pass me up by the time he's ten. 

We went to the surgeon yesterday and now instead of 2 surgeries this year he will only have to yet one! Yay!

The are going to deepen and widen the web space between his thumb and forefinger!

It's very exciting because it will make it a lot easier for him to grip.

He hated getting the x-rays but it was really good for me to actually see what is going with his hand, wrist  and elbow. 

We may have more surgeries down the road and we don't have a date for his first surgery yet but we are extremely grateful for Child Rehabilitative Services and for the doctors that volunteer there. 

We would never be able to afford these surgeries or even doctors appointments on our own and I know Heavenly Father has been looking out for us and helping us to be able give Jax the best opportunities possible.

I'm 18 weeks along with our little girl!

I'm so excited to have a little girl.

This pregnancy has gone pretty well. 

I had a few weeks this past month that were unpleasant because my uterus jumped up a little too high a little too quickly so my stomach couldn't quite handle it. 

I lost about 15 pounds. :( It's ok I'm not losing anymore.

But now I'm all better and feeling huge but good. 

I've been trying to keep busy and get out a lot.

We have also been in the process of applying for student housing (nightmare).

We are hoping to move within this next month before it gets too hot. 

I've already started packing, ha ha. 

I'm very excited to  have more room and have a playroom for Jax.

 I'm already making stuff for it.

Inside of the sweet beanbag I made for Jax

Outside of my awesome beanbag!

I am getting a level two ultrasound on the 29th.

They are going to be doing a bunch of tests and checking for genetic stuff along with Amniotic Band Syndrome (That's what Jax had).

ABS is basically strands of the placenta that bread off and wrap around the baby causing a variety of things to happen. 

In Jackson's case a small band wrapped around his elbow very early on in the pregnancy. It restricted blood flow and made it so two of his fingers just didn't grow and made his radius be dislocated because it was stuck in the same position.

I doubt anything will be wrong with this baby but it is nice to be getting all the test just in case. 

That's pretty much all for now. 

I will try to keep up on this better but we've got a lot coming up so I'm not making any promises.

Results Are In!

So according to the neurologist our worries can be curbed a little bit.

The EEG and MRI came back normal with neither seizure nor stroke type activity! 

First, of all let me say, Hal-le-frickin-lu-jah!

I know all parents feel anxious and worried about their kids but 

to me, from my experience, unless there is something wrong with your child

"Don't Stress!"

I know most people are better at this than I am.

I tend to be an over-exaggerator. Or well I think in times like this I 

don't think I could handle the emotional trauma bad news would cause

unless I'd been preparing for it.

Weird, Right?

Well now that those tests are done, on to the next!

We have an appointment on the 10th to see the neurologist again.

This time she will be ordering/ explaining to us the tests for seeing if he has nerve damage.

That was always our best guess to what was going on but after being told it could be all these other things

I couldn't help but automatically predict the worst case scenario.

I know it probably seems really pessimistic but to me it isn't.

Maybe I'm just fooling myself but in my head if I imagine it's the worst case scenario and then mentally picture

dealing with said scenario then when I find out it is the worst case or a better scenario (which most of the time it is) I am either able to deal with it like I expect myself to, or I am completely elated that it isn't as bad as I thought it would be and the obstacles I know have to deal with seem like tiny ant hills instead of mountains. 

I hope all that made sense. Sometimes it's really difficult to explain all the madness in my head.

In other news, It's Jackson's second birthday on Friday. Huh? Yep, that's right ladies he is another year closer to be that eligible bachelor you've been waiting for! Just another 14-19 years to go. 

Also, We have applied for student housing at ASU Polytechnic! I'm so excited to have a playroom for Jax yay! 

Um... I think that's about it. Well even though like nobody reads this it is totally therapeutic for me. I do hope that it is somewhat helpful in making at least one person feel more sane than me. For some reason it is always nice to know there is someone out there who is crazier than you.

 End of Rant! Goodnight! 

Birth Defect, and other worries

My Child has a birth defect.
I know I don't talk about this much
but I am really struggling with this right now.

Jax is missing his pinky and ring finger on his right hand.
He has a dislocated radius also on his right arm.
His whole right arm is also a lot smaller than his left.

On top of all that he also has seizures.
Like a lot of them.
He had an MRI and EEG on Tuesday.
It was very stressful and scary seeing him being put under
and having machines breath for him.

We haven't gotten the results but unfortunately
I am freaking and even though everything could be
ok all I can think about is all the different reasons he
could be having the seizures.

In utero stroke
Epilepsy
Nerve damage
Or unknown.

The really frustrating thing is that the doctor may or may not call.
They won't call if everything is fine but I won't really be at ease until the end of next week.
If they call then things really, really aren't right.
Either way it's a terrible thing to go through.

I hate just using the blog to vent but I just don't know what else to do.
I'd rather not be upset about this anymore.
Here's to hoping that I can just except whatever happens and be ok with it.

Sincerely,
The mom that just can't stop worrying.

What I Want For My Birthday!

All the fun things I want for my birthday! 

Yes, most of these things I will not receive but a girl can dream!

1. This pillow 

2. Someone else to clean my house!

3. To get over my cold!

4. To Pass my last class for my Associate's degree!

5. All the Harry Potter books

6. All the Hunger Games books. 

7. You know what, just give me a fully stocked library please!

8. To go to Jesterz

9. Building supplies so I can make bookshelves.

10. Chalkboard paint for those bookshelves.

11. A day to read, yes, just read!

Well I'm sure I've bored you all to tears but since it's coming in like 2 days I thought I'd share 

all the things I won't get. 

It's fun and cathartic I think to actually write down what you really want. 

I definitely recommend it. 

Ah, to be poetic

So I have always loved poetry I don't know if I told you all this but I want to be a writer and I have just recently finished (and am now re-doing) my first chapter of a book. Woohoo! Go me! Anyways an exercise I try to do as often as possible is write a poem. So now without further ado...

A moment

If a moment could be just that

I'd take it

I'd break it

I'd smash it with a bat.

Like a crystal, slivers shimmering on the floor

Dancing in the light, glimmering with ease

I'd make a day of gathering each piece

I'd take millions of moments, maybe more

Gathered together the moments would seem

Really nothing more

than a nightmare

Or a dream

Placing each broken moment in a drawer

Categorizing the type it may be

A look, a touch, a small fallen tree

So I could look upon them ever more

To take a moment and let it be just that

Glorious, shocking, simple, amazing

I'd take it

I'd break it

I'd smash it with a bat

Chandra Chant

Yeah a little random but I've been thinking a lot about moments lately and how beautiful simple little times in our lives can be.