Life for the past 2 months.

So the biggest thing that has happened in the past couple months was that I had a miscarriage. I wasn't far along and I really wasn't heartbroken about it or anything I just hadn't felt like talking about it. It happened at the end of September. I was only 6 weeks and I had literally found out the day before the miscarriage. Really only the day of the miscarriage was really hard. Surprisingly it was pretty painful and it took quite a few days to stop hurting. After that it was smooth sailing and it actually really helped me get motivated to get back in shape. So in a lot of ways I am grateful for the experience. Even though Jax's pregnancy was really hard and all the fears about his birth defect after he was born were really difficult I wouldn't trade any of those experiences.

It's a little strange that something like this can completely change your perspective. I have also been struggling with depression since I had an IUD (I can't handle hormones at all). Also really strange but the miscarriage helped me a lot with my perspective concerning the depression. It snapped me right out of it. I just decided that I had, had enough of being down. I also wanted to get pregnant again and knew that it wouldn't be good if I was still feeling as down as I had been.

Sorry this is such a short post, there has been a lot of other stuff going on but I kinda need to go to bed so this will have to be it for now. I just want to say that I know Heavenly Father knows each and every one of us and that sometimes even giving you a trial can help you get past other trials. I am so grateful for the gospel, and my family.

Let me know if any of you have struggled with these things. It feels great to talk especially to people who know what you're going through.

Jax Update!

Ok I know that for most of you the only reason you read my blog is for the awesome updates about Jax so this one is just for you.

Jax weighs 32 pounds!

He is tall but won't sit still long enough for me to measure him,

actually he's sleeping right now so I think I'll go try

probably the only time I'll ever be able to get it

Ok he is 33 inches long!

ha ha why haven't I done that before?

Anyways so I just did the calculator thing and he is the 25-50% for height 

and the 90-95% for weight! That ridiculous!

He has a cold at the moment and is pretty dang miserable!

I hate it when he's sick!

Jax is a crazy talker!

Story time,

So we went to build a bear the other day

we were giving Jax all the bears to see which one he liked the best.

He hugged and smiled at each one but was willing to let them go.

Eventually he said "Uh, uh that one."

And was pointing to a scruffy puppy.

So I took it off the shelf and handed it to him.

He hugged that puppy so tight!

And when I had to put it back he gave me the saddest look in the entire world. 

It broke my heart!

So we made the scruffy puppy and named it "Coco"

Well he loves Coco.

Takes him everywhere. 

Today in the car he asks "Coco?"

I told him coco was at home.

He just looks at me, "where is he?"

So I tell him again "he's at home."

He smiles and says "Oh" but keeps singing "coco, coco, coco" to himself.

It was adorable.

And when we got home and it was bedtime

 I ask if he wants to go see Coco.

He runs to the stairs and to Coco we go. 

Sometimes you buy you kids something and find yourself smiling about that decision in the middle of the night when they are sick and all they want is to cuddle with their Coco.  

New phrases Jax  is saying

Is that a star?

Where is he?

Who is that?

Where did he go?

Go, go!

I do peekaboo!

Blue's clues!

Where's Binky?

Where is Coco?

And of course 

Mama, ma, ma, ma, ma! yelling of course!

He he 

Seriously though everyday the hugs he runs up and gives me

the smiles I get for giving him crayons,

his excitement when we play outside,

and just everything about him makes my heart burst with joy.

Sometimes late at night when I sneak into his room to just stare at him I think of all the reasons why I can't believe I gave birth to him.

1. He is so stinkin smart

2. outgoing (says "hi" to everyone he sees)

3. loving 

4. caring

5. sweet ( I love when he sees I'm sad and gets all concerned and runs over to give me a hug)

6. helpful (he always cleans up his toys)

7. playful

8. So energetic ( I guess I was as a kid too, where did that go?)

there are a million more but that's all I've got right now!

Well that's all for now folks. 

Can't fight this feeling!

So I have been trying to keep busy and unlike other times I'm doing really good at it. So I've been sewing, cooking, cleaning and generally being a super-duper awesome wife and mom. Ba ha ha ok just kidding. I have been a lot better at keeping up on house duties and doing my fun little projects. 


I am trying to sell my bedroom set at the moment though because I want a bigger bed. Ours is a queen and has been fine but with my back killing me and Kyle's neck killing him we just need something that works a little bit better for us. It's gorgeous and very well taken care of so if you're interested.... Ha ha 


Anyways I made some pesto with my sister the other week and I don't know what it is about that stuff but it's absolutely delicious! I crave it on a daily basis now! so if you've never made any let me tell you a little story.
About a year ago or so I was dropping Kyle off at work and we had a little time before he needed to be in so we decided to try a little breakfast place next to his work. I got a bagel. Ok no, I got THE BAGEL OF THE CENTURY. This guy was a culinary genius. He toasted a bagel to perfection and slathered on some cream cheese, then perfectly sliced some tomatoes and topped it all off with some fresh pesto. BEST BREAKFAST OF MY LIFE! And I'm totally not over-exaggerating. You put pesto on anything and it is so easy, good for you, and delicious. 


You are probably wondering why I'm on a pesto kick! Well, in the past  24 hours all I've eaten is some crackers. I have no idea what I am sick with but I have been miserable. All I can think about is food. Even though I can't eat anything. Lame, right? So, don't mind me, I'm just hungry. :)

Beautiful new skirt

P.S. my shoes are awesome too!

It looks a lot better on! Ha ha

 This skirt took forever to make. I just made it a lot more difficult by adding the bunching top. It is so much fun to wear! It swishes and makes me look skinny and I absolutely love it! By the way I got this fabric along with like 15 more bolts with 10 yards each from Craigslist for 40 bucks. I should have taken a picture but I forgot and now it's all put away! OH well. ha ha Seriously awesome deal though! Yeah I pretty much really love craigslist.


I have a lot of fun stuff planned for this weekend so just pray that my whole little family will get better, Jax didn't eat anything today either. My poor guy just wanted to watch blue's clues all day! Ha ha well I love you all thanks for the support! :)

Get your giggle on!

Yep, I made a skirt. It only took a couple hours. 

I just used a basic pencil skirt pattern

It really was pretty fast. 

It helped that my friend Sicily is such an awesome seamstress.

Yeah she definitely taught me how to sew on a zipper. 

Much easier than my previous attempts.

In other news our Labor Day was pretty dang awesome!

We went to a hotel for the weekend 

(just Kyle and me)

The "resort" was way outdated but the bed was so big and comfy!

Plus, we got a free upgrade so that helped!

We also went to Jesterz. (http://www.jesterzimprov.com/)

So stinkin' funny.

We recommend you go once a month to get your giggle on.

I think that is going to be a new phrase of mine

Get your giggle on!

Yep, I definitely like it. In fact I'm changing the title of this post to that right now.

Well other than that fun stuff I mainly just have a lot of doctor's appointments.

Yep, I'm still having to do a lot of work for my back and neck.

Physical therapy, pain management, oh and I finally got a doctor who actually knew what the dry up pill was and I should be done with this uncomfortable weight in the chest area soon. Woohoo!

I think my next project is going to be my rocking chair.

I've got the fabric now I just need the inspiration.

Send some vibes my way. 

Such a cute smile!

New Pencil Skirt (Front)

Back

Oh and I'm going to try to take a picture of me in the skirt soon. If not me maybe a little bit better of a model. :)

Like this kid

Think he'd look good in my skirt?

Hmmmm...

Playing the Piano

Cheesy Pasta Bake

Ok I don't know if any of you know this but I love to cook.

Yep, it's super fun!

But I also love super easy and good food.

So what to do on a busy night when you want to make dinner

in 10 min and eat in 40 this is the perfect recipe for you.

Ingredients

-Penne Pasta

-1 egg

-Ricotta Cheese

-Mozzarella Cheese

-Ragu Traditional Sauce

-Garlic Alfredo Sauce (optional) Gives it a richer taste. I like the Bertoli brand.

Directions

Bring a 2 qt. pot of water to a boil. Add penne pasta (1/2 lb. was enough for both of us) and cook until al dente.

In a separate bowl mix the egg and 1/4 cup ricotta cheese, then add a 1/4 cup of Garlic Alfredo Sauce and 3/4 cup of Ragu Sauce.

Once pasta is done mix in with other ingredients then put in either a 9" round dish or a 8" square dish.

Layer with Ragu sauce then Mozzarella cheese 1/2-3/4 cups. (You can add parmesan cheese for extra flavor)

Then put in the oven at 350 degrees for 30 minutes or until cheese browns.

Take out and serve with an Italian salad or something else and Enjoy!

Well that's pretty much all I've done this week other than get Kyle all ready for school.

Oh and I've signed up for a class too.

I'm probably going to take a few classes.

Should be fun! And crazy!

~Chandra

Hello....

Wow, has it really been over a month already? 

Life has been a little crazy over here!

Kyle is still without a job! :(

But he starts school on Monday! :)

I had surgery for something minor that happened when I had Jax

at the end of July and I am finally feeling like myself again.

I still have a rough couple of hours everyday but overall my mood, attitude, 

and attention span have improved dramatically!

Who knew that being in pain all the time could make you so moody?

Piece of advice...

if something is hurting you, GO TO A DOCTOR!

I lived with what I thought was minor pain for a year and a half.

I'm so glad that I finally saw a doctor and got it fixed!

Anyways,

I am trying to figure out how to start a home day care.

I just have a few problems to deal with...

1. I need a bigger house

2. I need supplies 

3. Money

4. I need clientele 

Other than that I'm set! 

If you guys have any suggestions I'm all ears.

I'll be back soon. 

Fourth of July Adventures!

Papa with almost all the Grandkids!

So, this weekend was pretty dang interesting!

First we leave on Thursday!

Go up to the Rim past Payson!

Start Camping!

Us at the Payson park on the 4th

We are having super fun times,

And then...

Saturday

Ugh

Throwing up everything!

Not me, Jax!

He had a fever since Wednesday

And on Saturday everything just got ridiculous!

Jax and Connor being silly!

We had to take him in town to the urgent care.

Turns out he still had the double ear infection we thought he got over,

along with hand, foot, and mouth virus. (Cold sores all over the mouth, 

and sores on the hands and feet, very painful)

Which is extremely contagious!

Poor guy was so stinkin miserable!

Dirty, Dirty Face!

The only thing he wanted to do was ride on the quads.

That little guy loves quads.

He would sit there and first and then start to dance and sing.

Love, Loving the quads!

In other news, he also seems to love teddy bears.

On last Wednesday we went to Wal-Mart

and I picked up this cute little bear.

Jax apparently wasn't feeling good but he loved cuddling with that bear.

He sat in the cart hugging it and talking/ singing to it.

It was the cutest thing in the entire world!

He was so stinkin adorable.

Sometimes I can't contain my excitement at his awesomeness. 

Reading, Peter Rabbit with his bunny!

 Well that's all for now folks! Hope you all enjoyed the dust storm as much as we did today! 

Ha ha j/k.

Just glad we didn't get the car cleaned yesterday!

Mima being super silly

Jax and Calyssa hugging/ wrestling!

Footprints in the dirt.
So cute!

Driving With Daddy!

Aren't those just the cutest little feet!